So Nick is going to school this semester and I'm so proud of him. He hasn't skipped one semester (except summer). We're so blessed that we have been able to qualify for grants. Really, I don't want to live off school loans, even if it's a ton of money at the time and it's so awesome having so much money to live off of. No, I won't do it. I already have one loan that just kicked in that I received three years ago and I find myself complaining; I will not do that either because it could be worse, much worse. So I'm relating this story to prayer and I'll come back to that later. Nicks grant just went through the school and his semesters are now paid for and we knew we'd be getting some left over money back for our own but we did not know when. Rent for newlyweds is challenging but it's life. We also have a savings which is reserved for baby bills but sometimes we withdraw from it for emergencies, but we always put it back in. Well Rent is due on Saturday and Nick just got a job but won't get his pay for another week so I was stressing because to meet Rent we'd have to withdraw quite a bit from savings knowing we'd put it back but it'd take a couple weeks. Anyway I prayed that everything would be alright that we'd somehow come up with it. Well this morning I logged on to our bank and the school deposited our share of the grant money. It's amazing how the lord really is listening and is totally aware of our situations. Every time a blessing like this happens, I regret complaining and worrying. This is where my lack of faith comes in, but is restored all the same. I'm so glad Nick got a job and is going to school. He had a hard time finding a job after his temporary summer job at the nursery at Home Depot. He works right down the street from our house and he even walks there sometimes. The Lord knows exactly what we need and when it feels impossible to believe that things will turn out, they will! I'm grateful for that knowledge, and I'd like to say these things in the name.....Jk.
Life is good. I am striving every day to be an optimistic person in the financial realm. Our life, our problems, our situations are the only things that matter. Money and possessions other people have that are our age doesn't matter at all. I hate comparing ourselves to others. I want to be happy for other people and what they have and not envious. Perhaps it's normal to feel this way when you're poor. But it really doesn't matter how much money you have or what you don't have. What matters is that you're happy and supporting yourselves. This concludes my thoughts on August 30.